december 1 zero nine :)

goodmorning everyone! today is the first day of december 09 :)

24 days to go before xmas! woot i'm so excited.. how i wish we can have more parties to prepare.. hemlock party. chan party. 3littlepigs party. and family reunion. :)) in this blog i will not state any emo feelings. ahaha.. anyway.. xmas and new year is the best days of mine.. coz that days are tha days that makes me happier than ever.. i have my family and friends and i feel the happiness when it's xmas and new year. FIRST XMAS AND NEW YEAR for baby seth :))

sad story of mine

i know that life is beautiful but the contents are messed up. i want to change my attitude in terms of my ethics. i wan to be someone who less talk and more work especially in my family. they are the only one that i can treasure in my whole life.. i want to be considerate of them in many things. you know what? i did cry and cry a lot a few minutes ago. because my mom and i had an argument. she said that she notice me answering her like i'm the older one. because of my conscience i realize that i was wrong. and i know that i hurt her so much.. i dont want to be like that kind of girl :(( can i have that change right now! huhu.. i need to change myself. i need to be strong. i need to be independent. i work alone. i can accomplish something alone! :(( let me show you that i can do that!

pharma here i come!

this would be the last day of my sembreak:)) tomorrow's gonna be another day for me.. school school school! syet. we already have our pharmacology.. and i'm expecting so much from it.. i want to learn a lot in pharma:))

at this moment, i'm drinking my fresh milk:)) milky! haha.. i have something to tell you. you know what? i painted our comfort room with color green.. haha and it looks so good:)) haha..:)) how i wish i can see my crush tomorrow.. our rooms are just right beside each other.. hmm do i need to wait for something from him? or not? hay.. is he the one really for me?.. :)) ok! i'll stop now..:))

i should be contented right?

nov.8 10:38 pm

wala kong masabi ngaun ee.. hay. super duper mix emotions!

magulo ang isip ko. naiirita ako?.. i dont know. i cant understand myself! maybe i'm too jealous of something that i shouldnt be jealous of. amp.. til next tym. :)) i am supposed to be happy enough with what i have :) welcome 2010 :)

oooh lala!

nov.5 11:45 pm

tonight? actually i really dont know if i'm happy today?.. same normal day.. but today something happened. early morning i and muy text each other.. haha i really want to have some talk with him.. but i think dis is only for friendship. coz he wants someone already. :)) echos!

today is the birthday of my bestfriend and also my very own ate! :)) happy birthday to them :))

i really want to got to palawan! shit.. haha.. soon i'll be there.. so soon! :))

pictureperfect

This picture reminds me of something.. SECRET :)

all i can say at this moment :]

nov.4 12:30 am

the end of this year is coming. 2010 here we come! :] actually i'm so excited to celebrate christmas with my very own family :) can i have gifts? :)) IWANTSLR! watduh eff! :)) hehe.. i do only have a very small amount of money.. only 1/4 of the total cost of a SLR :)) 5 months to go to be completed :)).. gogogo for me :))

later this morning i will go to MDC to enroll. i want to start my 2nd sem right, clear and wishful thinking it would be great and fun! :) i want to sacrifice some of my time to review a lot ( a LOT).. as in.. boom! pharma?.. go pharma.. i can do it. i can make it. i can pass it! surely i can.. i want to have a good grades this sem. i promise you that!..

tom nov.5 is gem's 18th birthday! i really don't know what should i give her. what surprise party i should give and i was thinking if i can give her some 18 special balloons together with kathee :))

i need more exercise to have my abs! :)) wooow! ahaha.. soon you will see me.. i have my own abs.. ahaha.. i will be so sexy.., and beautiful enough?.. ahaha.. i dont think so :)) just kidding.. i just want to have my own dreams before i sleep.. i need to sleep already but i dont have the urge to sleep! ahaha.. ok.. i will stop now. i'm gonna search something in the internet :) bye:)

LOVE hurts :) but it's amazing

sometimes. it's good to feel so alone :) and yet someone wants to be with you :] echos!!! dreams.dreams.dreams. it sucks! :))

can you tell me how can one miss something she never had?.. -almost

ok dis day would be the day that i should start thinking for myself again and again :) tomorrow morning. my plan is to have some exercise through jogging. how i wish that i could make it :)) i want to get rid of my fats (tummy fats) ..

did you know what?.. i went to "bedscene", a bar in MOA.. i wore school uniform together with my "ID" ! wtf! so silly! :)) haha.. ilovemyschool isn't it? wahaha..

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crush

takte. boys are really boys! how can we know if a guy really loves you?. haha saka na nga yan.. dun na muna ko sa crushes ko.. kilig pa. :) ahaha.. bbye.. i can't say anything else..

money matters

how come that i've gone through this?. haha.. saving money is not easy. especially if there is something that you want to buy. i'm craving for chocolate :0 my baon is just enough for my school time. and i can't imagine that i can save almost half of it. haha. i want to save more monay for my future use. maybe for something which is really important. :) my mom always borrow money from me. haha. "mami may interest yan a". haha. so pathetic. the end. i can't say anything else.

whatsoever. ",

bakit ang tao masyadong mabilis magbago? nowadays, i noticed that people are too weird sometimes. some are so moody. changing their status so easy. they say that. that. that. etc. whatsoever. :) once upon a time there are two people who find themselves comfortable with each other. and yet so happened that they have this mutual understanding between the two. They always have this joking time with each other.. and the boy fell inlove with these beautiful woman of him. but suddenly the girl felt that she don't want the boy. and for friendship only. the boy feels so sad and don't know what to do. trying to forget the girl but as far as he could, he can't forget her. in his everyday life in school, he always saw this beautiful young lady whom he love so much. ... to be continued.

-- people do change a lot. the best place to change is where the heartache felt. we must forgive whatever happened in our past. we must learn from our own mistake so it will not spoil our present. we must do accept the changes for our ownselves. listen to your own heart and perception. whatever people say upon you is none of your business. learn to take time for yourself. time being alone can help you think for the better. learn to forget the past, and strive for your better future. we don't need to rush things. it takes time.. one step at a time.

purpose driven life

Four Benefits of Putting Margin in Your Life
2009/01/06

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)

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Here are four immediate benefits you’ll receive by building margin into your life:

1. Peace of mind. When you’re not always hurrying and worrying, you have time to think, time to relax, time to enjoy life. We had a bird come into the building one evening before service. He started singing, and it was just like we’d been given an invitation: “Just relax. Everybody except those sitting directly under the bird, relax.”

2. Better health. Unrelenting stress harms our bodies. We all know that, yet we let it continue day after day after day. Many times we only build margin in our lives after the heart attack almost happens or does happen, or the blood pressure skyrockets. Why do we wait until our health plummets before we make this decision? Why not realize thatwe need to build some margin intoour lives now? The truth is your body needs downtime in order to heal. Race cars make pit stops occasionally in order to get repaired. You can’t fix anything going 200 miles an hour. Yet, we try to repair ourselves while we’re still racing through life. Margin builds in time for better health.

3. Stronger relationships. Lack of margin is one big reason for the collapse of the American family today. When we don’t make relationships a priority and make time for each other, our relationships suffer. Relationships take time; and margin provides the time to sit and talk, to listen and enjoy one another, and to provide the comfort we each need.

4. Usefulness in ministry. When you’re overloaded by activity, you can only think of yourself. You’re in survival mode, just trying to make it through another day. But being available to God for his use makes all the difference in this world.

When you have no margin in your life and God taps you on the shoulder, saying, “I’d like you to do this for me,” your first response isn’t joy. Your first response is, “Oh, no! Another thing to do! Sorry, God – I’d like to do that, but I’m just too busy.”

We end up resenting the great opportunities God brings into our lives. But when you have margin, you’re available for God to use.

You don’t have to live on overload. You don’t have to live in survival mode. Begin today to build a buffer around your schedule. Then enjoy the benefits of margin and see what God does next!

-- purpose driven life

life keeps on moving.

mind matters. i keep on telling myself that i must focus on my goals first before anything else. it's not that i still can't get over with my past. all i want is to cure it without using another thing called love. first things first. :) failure can lead me for a better one not a bitter one. :p

zeronine

Tonight will be the first night of this new year 2009 for us. [ fireworks.firecrackers.boom.new years resolution.greeting.jumpings.noise.] all this things comes first. But for us, before those exciting things happened, we already recieve a BLESSING :) We are not that much surprised for the news that my brother brought to us. My parents were really hurt, but as they said "there's nothing to do with it. just accept it." As a soooon to be auntie, i'm so excited for our new baby in the family. I just don't know but i do really love babies. :) oops but not my own baby as of now, haha maybe after 8 years i think. how soon was that?.. :) my parents keep on discussing to us about how life is unfair but still good. We must learn to prioritize things. we must enjoy first our life with big obligations. We must focus first what we need in life in order for us to enjoy our own life. They always say that "there are so many boys/girls waiting for us. (di kame mauubusan)" right?. i keep on thinking the real rationale of those things. It's really true. At my age, i want to enjoy my young life :) i'm pretty enough to have my mr. right. After all the heartaching thingy, how i wish that it would be the last time that i will have false bf. :) i realized now that loving too much is bad. Learn to love wisely. It's not the heart that really functions in terms of loving, it's our own hypothalamus that really works on it. The brain controls everything that we want to control in our life. We are the one to choose whose the one we are going to love. "loving is not owning".

- after all of the things i've done. now i can say that i've learned a lot from those experiences. thanks for the memories. :) [_2009ishere]_ learn_to_appreciate_small_things_

:] chai -